No longer be

Mamma, I wanna die.

I don’t feel like I belong here,

I never did.

I feel like my words are poison

And my existence, rotten.

I've been walking through life ignored

And It doesn’t matter how many time I say it...

No one cares, because no one knows what to do.

It’s too heavy to deal with me

And it’s hard to be something else

I am sadness and abandonment.

So, mamma, what’s the point?

I’m tired of feeling this way

And I feel like my emotions are gone.

I live in this empty shell

Waiting and waiting for the day I just am not

Because I’m too coward to do something about it.

Maybe soon enough I’ll just lie here and no longer be...

Priscila de Athaides - 11/02/2018